Pursue mindfulness in all that you do. Seek knowledge of yourself. Always be aware of your thoughts and feelings and try to convey them in a manner which avoids causing suffering to others.

 We all must suffer during our lives, it is inevitable, we will lose loved ones, we will become ill, we will grow old and eventually die. But we can minimise our suffering by cutting out on our attatchments to material possesions so as to not suffer when we lose them. People will upset us, both intentionally and unintentionally, but we must question why we are upset and why we think it's important that our expectations are met. If we question ourselves enough we will eventually come to understand the nature of our expectations and we will come to view them like everything else in existence, impermanent.

From gaining understanding of ourselves we become equipped with the tools to better understand others and if we are truly to minimise suffering then this is to be our primrary goal.

The crazy dreams have started again, it's part of the whole self discovery thing. It signifies progression, I have temporarily gained the upper hand over my emotions, thoughts and feelings and behaviour. I must avoid getting complacent as my enemies must now alter their attack strategy. I must remain vigilant throughout this battle as it is a battle without end. I need to pay closer attention to myself to watch for sneak attacks and new developments, I must dig deeper.

 I may not like what I find there, but it will allow me to either accpet its influence, erradicate it from my personality or transform it into something more beneficial. Humans are maleable like that, capable of change, adaptation and improvement, we can teach an old dog new tricks. We need not stay stuck in negative and destructive mind sets, we can change these as we can change our clothes, our cars or our friends.

We can push our understanding of ourselves beyond our current perceptions.

Yes it takes will power and determination, but as the cliche goes, "Nothing worth having is easy to come by."

For some reason I am a subscriber to some crazy fashion sites, dating sites and makeup sites here on Xanga and I've looked through these things and wept at what some people are saying.

There are people who are blogging their way to skinnyness, now I don;t understand all this but I guess it has something to do with the crap these girls read in their mind numbiningly shallow magazines. You know the ones, with the photos taken with a massive zoom lens of a celebrity on holiday. There is often a nice red circle over part of their body and a nice insult on cellulite or something equally drab.

Come one people get a fuckin life! In the real world we all have parts of our bodies we dislike and all have parts which aren't perfect, fuck me most of mine is no where near perfect! But to point out peoples flaws and comment on their looks is just too fucking shallow for me.

I love you girls, all of you, regardless of your flaws, you make my world spin and the stars shine, without you I'd be a lost sad old wanker. I love when your fat, when your thin, when your tall, short, makeupless, au naturel,, goth, punk, trendy, hippy, you name it, I love you all.

Now stop trying to impress the shallow men of the world and pay attention to the ones with the brains to give you something more than a good photo of themselves. The world is full of us men who will take you as you are and point out all the good things in yourself that you have forgotten existed because you have been following the false reality of Cosmopolitan and Heat magazines.